Life is a funny thing. It is not amusing as such but it is rather odd how a human being can choose how to live their life. We choose our future at such a young age that sometimes we are still naive and make completely the wrong decision. Sometimes we are still unsure and go further into our education so as to bide us a few more years in the hope that an idea will smack us in the face like no other. Yet occasionally, there is that person. The person who seems to have it all figured out already; the same person with the 2012 diary already filled to the brim with dates and deadlines. This is the person who creates envy in people who did not know they could feel such an emotion towards an equal. Define equal and you will find that I do not mean it in a literal sense. This person is only equal through age, nothing else is remotely equal. Even if we have the same interests they are not completely equal. Yes, I like instrumental music and this person may also like such a genre. However, I like piano whereas this person may like acoustic guitar. No-one is the same. This to me is the reason why I am not having a breakdown with regards to my future. This ‘rant’ does however beg the question, am I therefore having a subconscious breakdown? Is this my personal way of dealing with stress? A large part of me is answering this question with a simple yes. I may be thinking just because this person has their life planned out for the next decade, it does not mean that I am no further than a few steps behind. I may be a late bloomer but by no means should that result in my recent lack of organisation. Normally I am such an organised person, I am known for it. Why can I not seem to help myself? My youth is no excuse: life is far too short for excuses.
