The uncertain future that is my life.

I'm sat here staring at my computer and wondering where on earth do I start my life? How can I get what I want out of my life? I know what I want this is the problem, I know! But I can't seem to figure out how...how the heck do I become an actress? Is the path I have chosen the right path? Will having a gap year be beneficial? How how how?!

I was sitting in the car with my mum after she lovingly picked me up from college, when she decided to basically scare me - well she succeeded because I'm now "sat here staring at my computer and wondering where on earth do I start my life?" I want to be an actress. I had it all planned! I was going to finish college then take a gap year and earn money whilst gaining experience before going to a drama school - RADA, like Gemma Arterton. I don't have the funds to pay for RADA and I sure as hell can't wait to go...maybe a scholorship is the right path?

A scholorship may be the right path - but will I qualify? My parents aren't particularly poor but we're definately not rich. I don't think I can imagine my life without drama in it, it seems like a foreign territory - something I'm not quite sure I'd like to venture into.

Curse my mother! xD She's made me think about all of this, we've established that I think a lot and sure enough, here I am thinking about my future. When I finish college, I want to jump straight into the professional theatrical world and just hope my head stays in tact - I'd rather it wasn't bitten off to be frank. I know that I could be a fantastic actress because I have always been the artistic member of the family and I'm the only one who is. Art and Drama create the tiny speck in the universe that is "my life", without them I would be a very dull human being. I've always been the loud one - voice projection ;) - even from a young age I've been able to shout at my parents from one end of a field and they've been able to hear me from the other. It's not just a passion in my life but it's the passion that makes my life what it is - a big fat drama! Ironic isn't it... I suppose all I have to do is repeat that to myself enough times and I may end up being an actress. No. I will be an actress because that's what I want to do, that's what I'm good at and that's therefore what my future is going to entail.

My plan:

• Finish my A levels to the best of my abilities.
• Get a flippin job! Money doesn't grow on trees contray to my beliefs.

Take a gap year, in which I will:

• Get auditions and acting jobs and save the money.
• Attempt to win a scholorship to RADA.

UNLESS!

• I could try for a scholorship now so I wouldn't have to wait a year - but they'll want experienced students...yes, a year of getting experience seems like the way forward to me! :D

Become a successful actress. If Gemma Arterton can do it then so can I.



Simple...ok not particularly simple, but if everything goes to plan then of course it's simple. I want this, so I'll get it because I can. I am a prime example of someone who is socially quiet and therefore whose talents go unnoticed by her fellow humans! Well, not me. I'm going to be somebody so I'll tell you this once,

Watch this space.